The Pretender

Often, we say things without thinking if it's okay or not. That kind of attitude had brought me up to be a good pretender. For three years I proved it's not a joke. Damn! was that hard man!
You always say your fine though you're not. You say you're not hurt though you are. You say you're happy when you're sad. You say you're smiling instead of crying. You say you're just fine when the truth is you're dying. Wow! I mean whoa! How could I ever cheat myself? I had always been the person saying "AT YOUR SERVICE SIR/MA'AM" doing everything they say yet can't even do a favor for my own. Anyway, one more year and it's over right?

Being D' Person

Have you ever placed yourself in the shoe of another? Have you ever felt to be the person in a humiliating situation? You sure didn't experience this right? It really hurt me when I saw him being laughed at, even though were not related or he's not someone special. I can see the sadness in his eyes and his silent prayers.

Birthday Forgotten

I proved that it's hard to be alone. I just had my 15th birthday last November 3, 2008. Not even one of my classmates greeted me in our classroom that day, they didn't me when I told them it's my birthday.........,maybe because they knew I'm a liar. Even my relatives didn't greet me. I know they already knew my birthday. And.......,who knows what I did that day? I was too silent and I felt I was angry or shall I say bad trip the whole day. My family is away from me, I can do nothing. That night, I stayed outside the house, I watched the moon starting to go whole and the stars shining down on me. I thought of the moon and stars as my best presents that special day of my life. Until I fell asleep I can still my heart heavy. I don't now the components of my heart or what it is carrying to cause the heavy feeling. I felt like I'm lost (long sigh).

pain

I can feel it spreading to my heart. How can I stop it? Can I ever swallow this pain I'm feeling?

men

I learned that men are more loyal companions or bestfriends than co-women

Am-among

I enjoyed watching cultural activities and we also performed. Festivals are tiring.

Am-among

I'm bored going to school

English

I didn't know that I can make some revelations about my self especially on our English subject.
Maybe because I think I can't carry too much burdens in my heart now unlike before. I've been wishing to have a book of my own life and I think that I can nearly have that wish because of our English subject. (hmmmmm............)

Reflection

"What values you show reflects you", "The kind of people that surrounds you reflects you". These are the common sayings which are related to reflections. But what I'm about to state is about my reflections here in school which are according to the people that surround me.

When we talk about reflections, we often think of our physical reflection, but we don't have to talk about it because if we look at our selves in the mirror we can see our reflection depending on the scope of the mirror.

How my classmates see me is who I am but after how many weeks of being with them again, I can't see any change, they treat me as the same person as they saw me before and its good to know that they don't say things which are contrasting about me. They talk with me nicely so I guess that says that I treat them nice. And maybe those things talk about my reflection.

BACK TO SCHOOL

Haayyy! Back to school again! I wish i could have a longer time to spent with my family.Cause observing the first day of school turned out to be so boring. Even though we have a lot of new students in school and a new classmate it didn't even excite me.Same location of room, same classmates and other old teachers from the past years. Not even a small change of environment, so sad, I thought I 'd get used to this kind but it seems that I'm the kind of person who seeks for something new everyday.

I am not expecting for too much when I entered our class.I am just expecting the differences of our new subjects now and the past subjects. I know that everything will be hard especially our major subjects like math, science, and English.And I'm right, even some of the teachers holding our subjects are hard to understand. I hope I'll pass all my subjects.

Our Mountain Hike

Early in the morning we set out to the mountain to look for mushrooms.